when I fall in love

it is 1.30 AM..
and im not going to sleep.
why? did i get some insomnia? oh no..
my mind is full of schedule that i need to do tomorrow morning.
so, it should be im going to bed and take some rest.
but, i cant..why? what do i think, now?
okay..maybe this is my mistake..it is always my fault.
'coz im always failed to control my emotion, in other word, love..
i hate to be weak just because of love.
that's why, im always try to reject that feeling.
don't blame me..i have my own reason..
i have my own life..and i hate this condition.
when my day will be screw up just because of love..
when i cant think logic and doing silly things..
when my heart beating faster..
when im always waiting my cellphone will be ring and it is him..
when my mind is always thinking of him..
oh GOD..what should i do??
i try to reject this feeling..but i failed.
i try to accept this feeling..but im afraid to get hurt.
i wish i could just let it go....
June 26, 2005